Been attempting music over this summer with a couple of mates. During that time we have composed. Sung. Written. And occasionally taken a break on Just Cause 2 or F1 2010.
Throughout all of these things, we have had ‘moments.’ A simple way of saying, ‘I’m currently fucking up inexplicably because of a lack of skill and/or minor brain lapse.’
I’m currently having a ‘moment.’ After a lazy start to the day [won the Bahrain Grand Prix in a Renault from 2nd on the grid] I proceeded with some music, and then some writing.
Both creative efforts today have failed. Not for lack of trying. Just for lack of… I don’t know, creativity.
I would like to be able to do something creative and:
  1. Afterwards NOT dislike it and never want to see/hear/read it again.
  2. Actually feel like I haven’t just wasted my time.
  3. Get paid.
  4. Feeling like I know what I’m doing. Generally.
  5. Be sure that this is how I’m going to spend my life earning a living.

OK.

Moment over.

I’m going to do the Australian Grand Prix as a breather and then try again. Because I won’t achieve those five things by becoming a virtual F1 champion.

It does help though.